Christianity

Religion is something I’ve never really thought of as important. As a child, I went to church occasionally (mostly on holidays and a few random Sundays) but never took anything seriously. I would eat candy, draw on notepads, and talk during the service because I was too young to fully understand what was going on. My parents stopped taking me to church when I was about nine years old. Since then I’ve been maybe twice with a friend of mine. This past January, our pharmacy got a new pharmacist and he is very religious. At first I thought this was going to be a horrible experience, but I’ve noticed myself changing quite a bit (for the better). Before he left for his three week vacation about a month ago, he took me aside and asked me about my beliefs and a few other things. At first I was a little uncomfortable with it, but once we really started talking, I realized that I need to have a relationship with God. His thoughts inspired me to better myself (so far it’s working…very slowly though). He told me that he did not want to see me go to Hell because I did not believe Jesus Christ was my savior. I cried a little during the conversation and he told me that everything would be ok. It would take time, but he believed that I could do it.

I don’t believe that I am a bad person, and neither does he (nor anyone else I hope!). I have obviously committed sins in my life (I am pregnant and not married, I’ve done drugs, cursed, stolen, etc) but I honestly do believe that Jesus will forgive me for these sins as long as I take him into my life and start changing NOW. I guess I just have a few questions for anyone out there who is Christian and willing to help someone in need….

1. I want to go to church, but I have no idea where to start looking into churches or which type of church to go to. Any advice?
2. Can my baby be christianed even though the parents are not married?
3. How did you change your life once you accepted God into it?
4. What steps should I take to start bettering myself?

If someone could maybe share their experience with me, that would be great. I guess I’m just stuck in between a rock and a hard place. I am surrounded by people who constantly curse, do things they really shouldn’t do, haven’t accepted God, etc. I know this makes it harder for me to change, but most of these people I care about deeply and I can not afford to lose the relationship I have with them (one of these people includes my boyfriend). Thank you to anyone who can offer any advice!