A Change Is Gonna Come

Or I should say changes. For one, I’m done with spending money on unhealthy food like soda and snacks. The next time I go grocery shopping I’m not buying anything unhealthy. It’s probably part of the reason I have headaches and I’m so tired all the time. Since I’ve moved from my mom’s house it feels like I’ve been eating more and I think that’s because I’m eating unhealthy. So no more of that. Plus I don’t want my son to grow up addicted to sugar and sweet stuff. I’m putting my foot down now.

I’m also going to not buy anything unless I absolutely need it. I’ve been buying clothes and stuff that I don’t really need because I have plenty. I have plenty of clothes and I don’t need anymore. Unless it’s something for Peyton, I’m not buying it. I’m tired of being so selfish with my money especially since I don’t have much of it.

I also need to get a few things in order. I have to think about other people before myself. Therefore I need to start cleaning more around the house when I’m not working. I always feel like I need time to myself, so when Peyton is at Mike’s and I don’t have to work until later or at all, I always take time and just lounge around and stuff. Well that’s pretty unproductive especially when I could be cleaning or doing laundry or dishes. So no more laying around doing nothing because it’s pointless. I guess in a way I don’t deserve time to myself because I need to take care of others like Peyton and Cody. I know that I don’t do nearly enough for either of them so I’m going to start doing more.

Another change which is probably the biggest is that every Sunday I’ll be going to church from now on. I loved Kristen’s church (NLCC) where I went today. The people are really friendly and the atmosphere is really laid back and fun. I enjoyed it a lot and I plan to go back even though the drive kinda sucks. I just hope next week Peyton will want to maybe stay with the other kids so he can have fun with them.

I know that I always say that I’m going to make changes and usually they don’t happen, but I feel like I have the power to change now because I have God in my life. I wrote a really long journal entry when I was at work one day and I will definitely type it up and post it. I will have to leave a little of it out because it’s extremely personal though. I’m off to take the trash to the dump now and then to return Peyton’s clothes since they don’t fit him at the mall. I hope everyone has a great day!

Nasal Spray

I went to a REAL doctor today. She prescribed me three different things. Augmentin (for my sinus infection), Veramyst (for my allergies), and Xyzal (for my allergies). I hope these things work. I’ve tried nearly everything else and nothing seems to work. I have never had allergies before, but this year brought them on. She also tested my thyroid because I’ve been having a lot of mood swings and tiredness lately. I hope they can figure out why I’m soooo damn tired all the time.

In my first class this semester, we are learing about setting goals (it’s just an intro class). So here are some of my goals that I REALLY hope to achieve by the beginning of August. Old habits need to DIE HARD NOW. It’s so hard for me to break habits, especially if they are bad ones that I have been doing for a while. Here goes…

Goals
1. No more red meat
2. Exercise (even if its just a few sit ups or walking the dog) three times a week
3. Meditate daily
4. Eat healthier (ie no ice cream, candy, extremely fatty foods)
5. NO MORE BUYING LUNCH AT WORK (this is the biggest one because it wastes tons of money)
6. Try to actually listen when people are talking about problems.
7. Save at least $100.00 a month (either in my savings accounts or in Lil P’s account).

I think all of these are extremely realistic. I believe I am going to start a food journal starting tomorrow so I can see how much bad stuff that I really do eat on a daily basis. Then hopefully I can figure out how to cut down then cut them completely out. It’s really hard to eat right and exercise while not spending money, especially when you are like me….mom, full time job, full time student, and trying to live the life of a 21 year old girl. It’s hard! I should stop complaining. Tons of people have it a lot worse than me. I also need to stop cursing. I don’t do it around M or my family, but I do it around co-workers a lot.

The first week of August I’m going to Sandbridge (which is a little place right near Virginia Beach). I am so excited! We are bringing Lil P and it will be his first beach trip. He has already been to Charlotte, NC. He is only 4 months old and he has already traveled a lot. Then the first week of September I am going to Myrtle Beach for 4 days then to Aiken, SC for 3 days. That will be exciting. We are bringing Lil P then too. He gets to travel WAY more than I did when I was little. I don’t believe I took any big trips until I was around 6 or 7. Lucky little guy!