Pointless…Un-Needed…Sometimes I Ask Myself Why I Even Try.

29 Aug

Today was definitely one of those days. I get to class…and the first one is good. Between the first and second, I go to the library to check my email only to find out that my Spanish class was canceled because of staffing issues. Seriously? I don’t even want to discuss it. I better get into the 201 class or I’ll scream. I’m sure Dr. Jacobs will take care of it for me though. I have faith.

Other things I’m not so sure about. Lately I’ve been trying…really trying to do everything. Last week I worked 36 hours (FULL TIME..YAY!), ran errands, took care of Peyton, did ALL the chores in the house (besides mowing/lawn care), and cooked dinner every night. Did I get a thank you for cleaning 75% of the house? Nope. Did I get a thank you for doing the dishes? Nah. Did I get a thank you for anything at all? Maybe at dinner once or twice…just to say thanks for cooking. I’ve literally been saying thank you to nearly EVERYTHING and all I get is a “yeah” or “ok,” in return. I don’t get it. Now that classes have started, I will be dealing with SIX classes, working part time, taking care of a three year old (not just taking care of him, but dropping him off and picking him up from daycare while I’m in class as well), cooking, cleaning, laundry, dishes, toy pick up, etc. I feel like a single mom and I’m not single. Oh well. I guess that’s what I get for all the times that I have messed stuff up. I just feel like he’s always pissed off at me because I’m not doing something right or I said something wrong or I sounded like an idiot for asking a question. Maybe I am an idiot.

Tomorrow is a new day, so we will see what it brings.

Anyway….classes went well. I am excited for tomorrow because I get to find out if I can actually be in another Spanish class. I also get to be in another English class which is exciting too.  I love learning :)

So, I have a complaint/rant to make. It’s not only about my personal experience, but about the subject in general. When two people get into a relationship or start dating, they really try to impress each other. They dress up when they go on dates. They do their hair, make up, put on cologne, etc. They try to look their best and act their best. Once the relationship has moved to the next level, things seem to calm down and the two settle into a routine. They may get a little sloppy…maybe not do their hair or put on make up…or just slack off on trying to impress the other person. Once the couple has decided to be engaged or get married, it seems like all bets are off. The couple pretty much doesn’t care about impressing the other person. They just assume that their significant other knows they are loved and wanted. They don’t dress up or make themselves look good, even on a date night. They don’t really care what the other person thinks about them because in their mind they are thinking, “They will stay with me no matter what I do or how I look or how I act.” I think that this is complete BS and couples SHOULD NOT think like this.

Couples should always try to look AT LEAST decent for their other half. They should do little things that show they love the other one (I’m not saying buy flowers for your girlfriend daily or shower your boyfriend in video games every week)…just little things like leaving a love note or giving them a hug or kiss when you know they need it. Couples shouldn’t let themselves go because eventually they will hate each other for it. Maybe not hate, but they will start to lose respect for the other person. I don’t understand why you wouldn’t want the person that you love so much to know that you love them and that you are still trying to impress them and flatter them even though you have been together for X number of years. It’s just weird.

Ok well that’s all for this rant. I’m done…have to go read for class :(

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