Come A Little Closer

So, things are now working out. We fought, hard…not physically. But now everything is much better. Everything is now out in the open. No more lies, no more hard times. I think from now on, everything will be ok…at least I hope so.

Lil P is still teething. I wish his top two would just come in already! He is having a hard time with the top ones. I feel so bad for him. Poor little guy.

Well, I’m off to finish my book “It’s Kind of A Funny Story” by Ned Vizzini. So far it’s pretty interesting. 

I went shopping yesterday…spent about $300.00. But I got a lot of stuff…and it made me feel better so it was WELL worth it! I do have to take back a pair of shoes I purchased at Old Navy because they don’t fit. I swear, some stores only make clothes for girls who are size 00 and lower. NOT FAIR!

The Age Old Story of Heart Vs. Head

My head tells me to stay with the one I’m with. If I do this, there will be a lifetime of comfort, support, and love (unless we are fighting, which has been quite a bit recently). My heart tells me to move on, there are better things out there in the world, to see and do. More people to meet and more love to give and recieve.

My head is telling me I’m scared, that I won’t be able to survive without him. What will he do if we seperate? I can’t stop thinking about this.

My heart tells me, just go for it. If you both were meant to be together, then it will eventually happen.

He has been recently talking to his ex-girlfriend. More than just once or twice. What does this mean? He says it means nothing, but of course he is going to say that…why would he tell the truth?

What is going to happen. I don’t know what to do. For the past month or so, we have been fighting nonstop. Nearly everyday. Bad fights. Yelling and calling names. It’s not pleasent.

On the other hand, I don’t want to let him go. I’ve been committed for so long, and he is the father of my son. What will happen? What will people think? I’m stuck.

I know there is so much more out there. I really do.

Back From Final Vacation

I can finally relax…now that I’m back from vacation. It was really fun, but very stressful at times. I enjoyed being with M’s family, especially when we were at Myrtle Beach. I really don’t feel like writing about the whole vacation so I will give a brief summary. We arrived at Myrtle Beach, SC on Labor Day (Sept. 1st). It was M, Lil P, Aunt J, M’s dad, Aunt T, and Uncle P. We were there until Friday the 5th. We left right before hurricane Hanna hit. After leaving the beach (Lil P loved it!), we headed over to Aiken, SC which is M’s hometown and where a lot of his family lives including his mom and dad. We stayed at his mom and dad’s house until Monday the 8th which is when we left to come home. We arrived back home (a 10 hour drive!) around 7pm that evening. Now it’s Tuesday and I’m STILL worn out.

It’s not even 10pm and I’m about to go to sleep. Right after posting a few pics of course!

P and M at the beach

P taking in the beach

All of the men in the family

P laughing

Mommy giving P a kiss

 

Oh yes…I must add this little bit of info I obtained while in Aiken thanks to Tabby. Picaboo.com is an amazing site…it lets you create scrapbooks…without all the work! Take a look. It’s really awesome.