I Wanna Know How Forever Feels

So lately (well, ever since M has moved in), he has been asking me in a jokingly way, “Will you marry me?” I don’t really know what to make of this. Is he trying to get an answer from me (even if it is a joke) to see what my answer might be if he really asked? Or is he just really joking around and being funny? I have no idea…it’s starting to make me wonder if he really wants to get married. Yes, we do have a son together, so that makes sense for him to want to complete a family, but in a way, I believe his grandparents and the rest of his family are pressuring him to get married to me. I don’t want him to make a decision he is going to regret just because his family wants him to get married. His whole family are extremely religious. There is nothing wrong with that, but they believe in no sex before marriage, so that means no babies before marriage. I, on the other hand, am religious, but I believe that if you love someone then it doesn’t matter. I had my son because I ABSOLUTELY don’t believe in abortion. I knew it was going to be very hard, especially with our lifestyles and income, but now I believe that God has given me the best miracle that I could possibly ever receive. Anyway…didn’t mean to get too deep on the subject. I just want to know everyone’s opinion on what you think….is he really thinking about marriage or is it just a gimmick?

Well, I used to do the Thursday Thirteen, but haven’t in a really long time. I believe that I will start that up again. I will have to rejoin since my old blog was on blogger.com and not on wordpress.

Thursday Thirteen – 13 Childhood Memories
1. Traveling to Florida when I was in fifth grade to visit Grandma and Grandpa in Venice.
2. Having my first “real” kiss on a double dare with a boy 2 years older than me.
3. Steering the wheel of my babysitter’s old Buick while she pressed the gas.
4. Pulling out my first tooth only to find that it hurt and blood started pouring out of my mouth.
5. Making lemonade pops by freezing lemonade in ice cube trays with toothpicks stuck in the middle.
6. Staying out in the snow until I couldn’t feel my ears and I thought they were missing.
7. Playing dress up and putting on bright red lipstick then taking pictures.
8. Traveling through the neighborhoods to see Christmas lights and decorations a few days before Christmas.
9. Getting my first computer when I was in 6th grade and playing this weird Barbie game non-stop.
10. Helping my mom bathe and change my brother when he was a baby.
11. Moving from our old house to our new house a few months before my brother was born. (I helped carry in the small boxes haha).
12. Walking up to the general store for the first time by myself to buy my mom a loaf of bread.
13. Graduating from kindergarten (we had to do this play called the “ABC” play and I was the letter “D” for “Doughnut”

Haha, I hope everyone enjoyed that. Sort of boring. I’ll think of a better topic next time!

Finding Faith

I’ve been pondering a lot lately, about faith, God, and just religion in general. I finally believe that I have found God and that I am willing to serve him for the rest of my life. I have accepted that I have flaws and I am willing to accept that because I know that God loves me, and in the end, that is all that really matters. I don’t really know what took me so long to figure this out, but I’m glad I finally did.

Sorry this post is so short. I’ll be sure to elaborate more when I get the chance to actually write. Now, I’m headed off to bed because I work 9am to 5pm tomorrow. The baby is finally asleep, so I am going to rest when he is. Hope everyone has a good night!

I Just Want A Shower

Honestly, is that so much to ask for? I think not, especially when I have been running around all day trying to get everything done and make everyone happy. Eh, what can you do. I suppose that is my new, third job now. Being a full time pharmacy technician and a full time mom just wasn’t enough. I did get to enjoy a half hour of being outside in the gorgeous weather, playing basketball with a neighbor’s five year old child. He was actually decent to my surprise!

Tomorrow is Monday and I (thankfully) have the day off. This will make the fourth day in a row, but alas, I work Tuesday through Saturday then Sunday must drive 6 hours to Charlotte, NC for a memorial service on…Memorial Day. Hopefully I do get to relax, even for a few hours on Sunday by going to Carowinds. It will most like rain on my parade (literally) because rain is now the new sun apparently. I believe Northern Virginia is going to be the next Seattle very soon.

Today has just been depressing all around. Right now I’m still in the sweaty clothes that I played basketball in about 5 hours ago. I’m itchy, stinky, and I need to shave my legs. My boyfriend has decided to go to a friends house and leave me alone with my 10 week old, so there is really no chance of me even thinking about a shower until he gets home. The baby is sleeping now, but he has proven to me that if I actually try to do something that is louder than typing on a keyboard, he gets upset and for some reason, wants to eat. So the shower will unfortunetely have to wait until midnight (or later…if it’s much later the boyfriend and I will be having a little “chat” when he gets home) or tomorrow…(god forbid).

I’m in the writing mood for some reason, but really have nothing to write about. I know I’m usually positive and upbeat but it’s just not happening today. I don’t know what it is really. Something in the air? Maybe the water? Who knows…hopefully I get out of this funk soon. I think it’s mostly because I am still “fat” from the pregnancy. By no means am I overweight, but I am still about 20 lbs heavier than what I was before I got pregnant. I was hoping to shed those by June, but it looks like that is not going to happen. I’ve toned down the eating a lot though…and I’m only drinking diet soda. I hope it works. Well, I am going to go…GET A SHOWER!! YAY.

2 Months And Counting

So Peyton Conner is 10 weeks old now. That’s crazy, right? Yea, I know. It just feels like time has gone by so fast. He is now 12 lbs and 24 inches long. He’s soooo tall! The doctor says he is really developing well and reaching most milestones way before he should be. Thank god for Good Start formula. At least we know the money is worth it. It keeps the baby happy anyway haha. Anyway, I am still with CVS as a tech. I got a big raise (making 11.50 an hour now, which is a lot for what I do). And I get another raise in August so by then I’ll be making about 12.10/hr. I am so happy about that. Finally, more money. Peyton has been doing really good. He loves going for walks and taking baths. He also LOVES being naked. It’s his favorite thing to do. Diper changes are the best thing because he could be screaming one minute and as soon as he is up on the changing table, he is soo happy. I love it. We are starting to mix a little cereal in his bottle and he is taking it well so in about a week we are going to start spoon feeding him cereal then a week after that is vegetables! I am excited haha. I can’t wait to see what he likes and doesn’t like. Hopefully he is like me and loves everything.

Well, just wanted to give a quick update before heading off to bed. Oh yea…he is already sleeping through the night…about 8 to 10 hours a night! Great times!