This Is Now, Not Then

So life comes and goes. I am going to refuse to talk about the past few months. I met a great guy and I will talk about him. Well, not really. But he’s great. And his name is Mike. That’s all you need to know.
I am going to talk about my feelings right now since Mike is downstairs watching “Weeds” and I’m up in his room completely alone and wanting to pee. I need to get over my insecurities. Guys don’t want to hear about how much weight I need to lose or how my ex boyfriend cheated on me a billion times. I need to get over all that. But it’s so hard. And it feels like I push people away and ruin tons of relationships (both friendships and romantic relationships) because I push people away and just…ahhhh I hate it. I even hate talking about it and admitting it to myself that I do this. I just want to be perfect for him. Maybe that’s my problem. I’m trying to achieve something that isn’t possible. I’ll figure things out eventually. I know what I definetely need to do…lose some weight. I’m about 15 lbs overweight for my body frame and height. So yea…that needs to come off. I’ve been eating a little less so that’s good. I just need to keep eating less haha. If I eat more good food then I should be ok. Ever since I started at CVS I’ve been eating a lot more fast food and I need to stop that. Yuck. Food is bad.
Ok, well I’m done ranting and complaining…mostly because I need to pee. That’s all.